Still deciding. This is exhausting

It's been 2 months in braces so far. My orthodontist has been very patient with my indecision about surgery. There's about a month before the orthodontist needs an answer from me. I've talked with one surgeon. Next week I go in for new wires, and I'll ask the ortho for a second surgeon referral.
I'm going back to the first surgeon this month. My health insurance doesn't cover this surgery

He quoted around $15,000 for surgery and hospital fees.
I would definitely go the surgery route if my insurance paid for this, which it won't. If I pay for it myself, I'll need to save as much as I can and charge a credit card for the rest, mortgage my house, or find a different insurance that covers this (not successful so far in my area). Ugh.
Are other folks in this situation of having to pay for surgery? It's such a crappy situation when the cost can influence the decision on whether or not have surgery.