Yup I'm an anxious mess too
I'm a bad people pleaser. I'd let a surgeon operate on me just to avoid making him unhappy lol. I tried Lexapro, no help. I've taken Xanax a few times, no luck. CBT and talk therapy. As Rico said, when I feel healthy my mood is wonderful. It's the constant drag of health problems that brings you down. I have bouts with catastrophizing but most of the time I'm ok, I can speak in of a crowd and when I feel good I don't mind pissing people off and my narcissism comes out. Things I find helps the most are sleep, exercise, and sex. I need surgery for really good sleep of course. Exercise and sex are great but the effect only lasts a few hours afterwards and I have kids and s**t to take care of. Oh live music is good, being out and around people. Reading self help books. Helping others. Religion. Journaling. Support groups, online ones like /r/anxiety, omegle #anxiety, 7 cups of tea, or a local meetup. Hyponosis is nice (watching TV or anything else to distract).
Lazlo, we're here for you! But not too much sometimes, you need to PM me. The last item on my list... turning off stuff that makes me anxious lol.