Hi guys,
I just need a place to share my concerns and nobody will understand me better than people on this forum.
I grew up with quite an unattractive face. I was a cute kid but I guess I had bad oral posture. It didn't bother me so much growing up, as I wasn't actually aware of how bad I looked.
So 3 years ago when I was 23 it really started bothering me and I got kind of obsessed over it. I wouldn't call it BDD since those are actual real flaws and not made up in my mind. I am not one of those guys who look like models and think they are ugly.
The thing that probably bothers me most of everything is that I fell like all this could have been avoided if I had good oral posture. Everyone in my family has great jaws except me. It would actually be much easier for me if it was just the way I was born and not influenced by me hanging my mouth open.
The thing that is stopping me from getting the very needed genioplasty is my family. I tried talking to them about it, but they don't even understand what I want and when I say that the doctor would cut my chin with a saw and screw it back on it sounds horrible to anyone outside of this jaw surgery community. I also wear a short beard ALWAYS to cover up my crooked recessed chin so they are not even aware of how it looks really.
The fact that is the most absurd is that they were fine with me getting a rhinoplasty (extreme deviation of the nose and poor breathing), and they are fine with me getting a secondary rhinoplasty soon because the first one left me with a concave nose and not perfect breathing. My father has a breathing problem and we actually plan to go for surgery to the same doctor on the same day. Rhinoplasties are considered normal, every second person has had either a septoplasty or a rhinoplasty. Genioplasty however is something strange to a regular person. At least in my country.
I am feeling very depressed. For the past 3 years I have been spending hundreds of hours researching everything about jaws, surgeries and in the end I still didn't get a genioplasty. My problems are:
- recessed and asymmetrical chin (biggest)
- vertical maxillary excess (although I don't have a steep ocl. plane)
- nose that was extremely crooked is now slightly concave and needs another operation
- bimaxillary protrusion
- lip incompetence due to VME and bimax protrusion
- hair loss still in early stages.
I would be pleased with just fixing my chin, nose and keeping my hair.
A possible option for fixing lip incompetence and maybe achieving some autorotation of the mandible would be braces with TADs but I am not very inclined to that option because I had braces for 2 rounds already and I am not sure of the amount of autorotation I would get.
I am of age where I should be pursuing a masters degree, finding a job and all that, but I just cannot help but think that I would live a much happier life if I had a genioplasty. I would be comfortable in my own skin. I would be much more confident and motivated to pursue my degree and other things in life. Apart from my chin being deformed, and other facial flaws, I couldn't be happier with other things in my life. This is sucking all my energy.
What do you think I should do? I tried psychotherapy, and although it is nice to talk to someone openly, I don't believe I will ever stop being bothered by my chin.
Should I just try to focus on other things and do the surgery later in life in my 30s? What do you think about TADs impaction and will it have any noticeable result on the projection of my chin?
Thank you guys!