I haven’t seen your photos, so I cannot comment.
But consider psilocybin or MDMA, which show promise for PTSD and depressive disorders.
riight..."consider a hard drug that fries your dopamine receptors" as a solution to your depression. commmon man, how about suggesting, eating more fruits and vegetables, NOT DOING drugs , NOT messing up your dopamine receptor by artificially stimulating them with drugs and exercising and eating healthy.