Hi all
I'm new here, My first post But i have read the threads for the a while , n try to educate myself on many terms i knew nothiong about
(and I still will say i don't get them all )
My storyis a bit long and compliated . Sorry in advanced (it's the shortest i could - but it's still totally long - i know)
If someone is willing to read i'll be glad .
My English is NOT my main langaue so PLEASE FORGIVE ME IN ADVANCED for my not the best english.
My problem is both auesthetic and medical.
I prcaticly live in hell - i'll expalin.
I'm 42 yo guy. Till age 32 i was healthy more or less
- i looked ok . Always looked totally younger then i am .
At the age of 32 i had an health disaster of chronic debilitating pain syndrome.
It started when I went to a dentist to do simple dental procedures.. and after that got home and EXTREME UNBELIEVABLE PAIN started ...
Pain was mostly in the tooth i was like all day going for years with pain that felt like the tooth being extracted out my mouth without anesthesia...
I lived with teeth pain all day. n ( i will also mention that 2 years before it all started i got hit severly on my my left cheeck. maybe it's connected.
I'll SKIP many many many stages in to make it shorter- since that day I 'm living with chronic pain which is almost 24/7 extreme pain in my teeth and gums...
It has started on the left side.. and severeal years later Its also on only 2 specific teeth on the upper right side in the back (theeth since than been extracted) .
What also had happened is that i also noticed my jaw has totally changed its look like got crooked to the right
About my chronic pain contidion - over the years i've I've been to tens and tens and tens of doctors in all fields . pain clinics... I was given all on the meds possible
neurologiclal meds.. .pshychiatric meds.. strong opiates (narcotics) , medical marijuana many done many procedure that are irrelevant to here... etc) did all the scans (CT MRI) etc that are possible (BUT not cepg scan - cause it wasn't related to the medical problem)
Doctors don't know what it is - even thought there are many many cases like mine.
For the last 10 years i baically live in hell - and I've quit my job 2 years ago - a job which i was at for 12 years because of
the extreme pain. I basically have no life.
What other thing that hads happened - is that i have totally lost my look - and i've noticed it just right after my pain started.. even a doctor in the ER noticed it than.
My face got so weird to look at , so UNPLEASANT which totally DEVASTATES
I can't look at who i have become in the mirror anymore .
It's totally extreme to me -
I've posted pictures of me i know they're not ideal - but i don't have much "old" pictures of me to show .
I have never would have thought i'll publish pictures of me of nowdays anywhere - cause to me they look terrble - I totally can't look at my currnet picture...
and of course not to publish them .
In my facebook profile - I don't have any pics of me.
There is an important point i must say -
If you give advice - I have always had a gentle look, boyish.. you can say feminite if you want - and that was OK for me.
I liked the harmonic - nice to the eye, unique shape of me jaw -
I'm not looking into "manly jaws look " ,
i know many times when you give advice here you refer to manly models jaws , square jaws -
i'm not into that .
That's not my characther . And it's ok for me. I don't need squrish jaw.. .i just like harmonic jaw with nice proportoion to look at.
Please consider this.
https://imgur.com/a/hYfMDxxWhat i have observed about myself over the years (and doctors in my country WON'T admit it they have no auesthtic eye) :
1. Jaw got larger, rough in a way (the angles of mandiblue got rougher ) and jaw height/legnth got shroter. Ramus got shroter. and like pulled more backwards .
2. Let's talk about the "elephant" in the room. I know i have gotten bald. Lost all my hair i'm getting totally bald . I know that.
I know it contributes to the bad look but lets talk about the jaw.
3 . Under eye got sunken - more tired look. I need maybe filler theres .
5. Eyebrows fallen - cheeck falling - like sagging - i'm sure it's not natural again - but it's due to face getting shorter . Need probobaly fillers in cheek
than the skin got sagging - it it less "streched" because face is shorter.
4. My CHIN got about 50% SMALLER , less dense . :/ Dont know why. it can defintly seen in some pics. My feeling is due to my bone totally getting thiner... the skin on it gets less strech.. cause no bone to hold it neneath.
5. My face will look thinner to you in the pics; . but i didn't lose weight - if any i've gained body weight because of all medications.
Last of all - i've added my PANO picture. I don't have ceph . 2 years ago i've lost 2 upper back molars . I've extracted there because of the extreme pain in my mouth. It didn't help - i still have pain there inside in the bone -
So - there is no way i can do implants any soon . So it might be - that you would say that without these teeth - i can't do anything. I don't know.
I'm also aware - due to my medical situation - i doubt anyone will operate me - i just wonder - if there could be any connection between pains in my mouth .. to this chnage of shape.. of collapsing of face.. shortherning of ramus.
I feel - my jaw need to get lowered even a cm (make jaw longer) and to the left (this can't much be seen in the pics) like the ramus bone longer and to make more pleasing to the eye proportions between it to the bone that goes from under the ear to chin.
Will be glad to your aueathetic advices regards all kinds of jaw surgeries (i have no knowledge what i need to do - i just know i wish i could give back my jaw to the one it was 10 years ago)
There are such great members here that i totally love reading their insights they have much more auesthtic eye than many many of the surgeons i see online. (i never had any surgery myself).
Be gentle with the remarks please i know my look has changed drastically .
Sorry for the length if you read it this far .
Great thanks you all
https://imgur.com/a/hYfMDxx